ashlaybabay

Tue, 27 May 2008 07:12:44 GMT

Here i go again its 12:07 and im posting another journal.

i hope my journals kinda interesting.

anyways today sucked, my bf spent the night.
we woke up and i told him we needed to talk because he gets mad over everything and its frustrating!

nothing helped so i told him we needed to go on a week break just to think things over and get a little break.

He freak!

I told him im still in love with her and that i still want to be with him.

now its up to him.

TATTOO!

Sun, 25 May 2008 08:56:02 GMT

again! why do i post my journals so late?!

haha anywho...
Today i had a pretty fun day just me and my friend gabby.

I woke up this morning and decided i wanted to go get a tattoo.

So i did. Gabby and I went to this tattoo shop where i got my first tattoo.

I got the cuttest thing, I got a dove with a cross in it behind my ear. i have been thinking about it for awhile.

It was funny because my friend decided she wanted one to, it was cute she just got a heart shaped peace sign on her wrist its really small but it was her first one so i dont blame her.

I got it for her for her birthday =] YES IM SUCH A GOOD INFLUENCE!

good night =]

Fri, 23 May 2008 07:46:47 GMT

Today was semi interesting.
My boyfriend and i broke up last night because he says im to busy for him.

but its ok because we worked things out we werent ready to give up on us yet. (which makes me happy because i love him).

ugh i love him! today was our 37 months lol 3 years and 1 month!

anyways.....
my two really good old friends came over and we went to dinner i missed them!
im so glad they came!

im so tired i never sleep anymore im gonna attempt to right now.
good night!

Wed, 21 May 2008 18:36:09 GMT

i did not post anything yesterday because i did not go to work simply because i was so god damn tired.
Wanna guess why i was so tired?
Maybe because my roommate and neighbor would not let me sleep!
Thats one of the sucky things about having roommates.
but shes not even the bad roommate shes heaven con paired to my other roommate.
we wont get into that =/.

Nothing has really happened sadly.
Me and my roommate gabby shes like my best friend we went to this train track kinda by our house and has the sickest tagging i have ever seen! we just walked down it and just looked at all of it. it was so cool!

we always find something to do.

Hello Cemment .

Thu, 15 May 2008 23:59:35 GMT

I'm too stubborn or offensive or even just plain scared to tell certain people things. So here it is. It's things I wish people knew or I wish I could tell them without getting my head bit off.

~ Don't ask me my opinion, or tell me things like that, then want me to tell you what you want to hear. I'm not going to tell you that I don't think it would be a mistake or that I agree when I'm worried about you.

~ I know I have done some stupid things. Don't rub it in my face or act like you know my life better than I do. You don't.

~ Please don't leave the one you love for the one you like. It's not up to me, but this is how I feel. I'm not going to tell you I think you would be happier with someone you lust after over someone who adores you. Unless there is something you aren't telling me, don't be mad about what I think.

~ If you need to talk to me, you need to just tell me. I'm like a guy sometimes honey. You need to not just leave subtle hints, you need to just tell me. I'm not going to keep asking you what's wrong because I figure you're grown up enough to let me know when you need me.

~ Don't just call me to bitch about your boyfriend all the time. Maybe I need to talk to you too sometimes. I don't mind hearing about him, but just not all the time ok?

~ Don't tell me you love me, then turn around & treat me like shit. Whether you have issues going on or not, you need to not take it out on me.

See it wasent to bad, was it?

Thu, 15 May 2008 01:46:34 GMT

So im at work and at my work i answer a million phone calls a day LITERALLY so my head always hurts by the end of the day its wonderful! well at least it pays the bills and the rent thats all i can ask for. At my age (18) with out collage you cant get that great of a job. Well im working on the college part. Untill then its answering phone calls and dealing with the hang ups and screw yous. HURRAY FOR ME!

Wed, 14 May 2008 18:45:20 GMT

Ok So i wake up this morning and im in my pj's which is under wear and a sports bra as usual and walk out to get a glass of water as usual and the bratty little boy down stairs is in my living room just staring at me UGH! i hate that little kid why cant i ever get some privacy! so now that bratty little boy got to see my half naked what a wonderful way to start the day huh? Every time my roommate babysits that kid he always breaks something or does something he shouldn't be doing. we got a cable bill yesterday and we look at it $75 worth of movies rented on there and not by us funny thing is i always saw him go on the on demand thing and i would say "Payton your not renting anything right? and he would say no no im not i promise!" and the bill comes and theres like a million movies rented! and hes not stupid hes 10 years old i mean really come on. All i know is that im not paying that!
well anyways ill probably post more through out the day since im bored at working just thinking or more like drowning in my sorrow.

Wed, 14 May 2008 01:05:37 GMT

ok so i decided im going to write in here everyday. well isn't that what its for? maybe because i don't really talk to anyone else about anything. so ill talk to my live journal buddy's! arnt u guys excited i know i am. My life can be pretty interesting at times. for example i spent the night in jail Wednesday night funny thing about it is that i don't do anything ever to get in trouble i don't drink i don't do drugs seriously its so dumb. if ur a nosy little person like i can be u can go ahead and ask me why its a funny story. my parents freaked out they think im turning into my brother =[ that wont happen cause i will never end up in prison thats for sure. i guess isnt does matter they really cant do anything about it anymore. oh well.

Youtube it

Tue, 13 May 2008 23:22:00 GMT

How cool would it be if u
could wake up and Youtube
footage of your dreams.

Abby <3

Tue, 13 May 2008 21:47:26 GMT

"our faults do not define us, for our habits are not what drives us... we step forward with our better half.. and we will live for no day but today."

its so crazy to think where life can take u.

A couple days ago i find out i was 5 months pregnant and i had a miscarriage. I fall.
A feeling of sadness with slite relief ran through my body. i call bobby my boyfriend of 3 years he was so sad that he wasn't there while are baby was dying, that did not help at all. he comes to see me in the hospital the first thing i see is a tear streaming down his face. He sits down next to me and touches my stomach and says " i know how hard this must be for you and for us but we are to young to have a child i know u would be a fantastic mother no matter what age but we have our whole lives ahead of us to have a whole bunch of kids ". "I tell him i know that and i know im not ready to have a baby right now but its the fact that my own child died inside of me and i have no idea why". The doctor walks in and asks me if i want to know the gender of my child i look at bobby and he just nods yes, the doctor just said it was girl. i wish i never new. i start balling i know that its better off to not have a baby but i cant help but feel so bad inside. i don't know if im just being dramatic but i cant help but feel the way i do. im doing alot better now im basically back to normal and me and bobby can talk about it we decided to give her a name "Abby" just because its so darn cute.